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Wish List

2012-01-28T23:40:00.000+08:00

Okay! So I've finally got enough things I need to make a wish list.

I know I always say I don't like to make a wish list because I believe that people close to me should know what I want instead of me telling them what I want. But I guess no one will know the exact things I want if I don't say it out. Yeah, it may be cool and totally awesome and touching if you guys did get me something I need even though I never said it out loud, but it's not fair to people who love me. Something I've learn along the way. I'm working on it. lol.

So I've compiled a list of material things I think would be beneficial to me.

1. Horseradish: Bitter Truths You Can't Avoid by Lemony Snicket

The cover looks like this. Memorise it.

I am utterly amazed at the way Lemony Snicket writes.
His writings are inspiring and funny, loving and touching, all in one. I have read quotes from this book which makes me want for more.
But when I go searching for them in book stores around KL, not one copy is found.
Thus, making me sad.
Even Kinokuniya does not seem to have it.

2. Soul Surfer by Bethany Hamilton

This is the cover.

or this

You know I prefer this cover better. lol.

Well, no matter what the cover looks like, what's inside those cover is what I'm looking forward to have.
It's a movie now, but I don't want to watch the movie until I've read the book. Usually books are always way better then the movie adaptation.

What made me want this book is simple, it's inspiring. It talks about faith from a teen girl's point of view. And if there's life changing lessons Bethany learnt, I need to have them in my life as well.

By now you probably think all the items in my wishlist are books.
Well guess what.. You're right. Because my wishlist ends here. haha.
I'll be updating this from time to time, to add in more things I want or need (that hopefully are something else other than book. lol)
I'm easy to please, give me an interesting book and I'll shut up for 1 whole day. I love reading.

It brings me places.
Teaches me new emotions.
Gives me new perspective.
Encourages me during tough times.
Expands my imaginations. So.. why not wish for books?

So yeah, wait for my list to be updated! :)

Cats with wings and...

2011-11-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

Tortoises have shells.
Bulls have horns.
Dogs have tails.

But do you know that there actually are cats in this world that grows wings?

Yeah, I'm back blogging about strange and unusual things :D

Yes, some cats grow wings. BELIEVE MEEEEE.
Yesh I'm still high on 'drugs' but not on the synthetic drugs, okay. Still high on Jesus. lol. So what I'm about to blog is fully true. BELIEVE!

So there's this cat in China, it grew wings.

What?

You expect me to say more? You don't believe me do you? Well, you need to! :P

Haha, okay, no more trolling.

This lady, Feng, owns a winged cat.

Read original story here.

Feng lives in Sichuan.

This winged cat with no name is a tom cat (boy cat).

Feng says her cat started growing wings when all the queen cats (lady cats) comes after her tom cat.

About 267.12km from Feng's home in Sichuan,

another family in Chongqing also has a winged cat. (I am so geographical.tsk.)

So this family has a winged cat too. Proof.

In fact, winged cats aren't as unusual as you think. There appears to be a lot of them throughout history. So much that Wikipedia has a compilation of cats who grew wings. Check it out here.

If you did click on all the links I've provided, you'll also find out why these cats grew wings.

Basically, it's because these cats have long coats of fur. Longer then normal cats. Wikipedia suggested 3 main factors: 1. Poor grooming 2. Skin condition 3. DNA causes growth of extra limbs.

If you're wondering, none of these cats can fly. Those wings are just extra growth on their backs.

If you think I'm going to stop here, you're wrong. :D

Since we're on winged cats, I thought I might as well cover 'horn' cats. See what I did there?

Wing = Angel

Horn = Devil

Awesome right. As if dishing to you about winged cats aren't enough, I present to you, Yoda, a cat with 'horns':

Yoda looks pretty sinister here.

It's a coincidence that he's a black cat, right. Right. *grin*

Well, technically, Yoda does not have horns. Those 2 flaps on his head are extra ear flaps. So Yoda is actually a cat with 4 ears.

Go ahead, read the full article here.

Despite all these weird things about these cats, I'm sure that they are still normal cats with normal behaviours. Don't go worshipping them and stuff. heh.

Until the next weird news (or my next emotional blog post), see ya!

The Drug

2011-11-11T08:13:00.001+08:00

I'm on a kind of drug.

I've been having this drug in my system for more then 48 hours. I feel great. It's as if there's no burden in me any more. I don't need to worry.

It's better then morphine (I heard they're good). It's better then ecstasy (I hear they can easily make you high).

This drug is different, it makes me feel calm and high at the same time. And amazingly enough, there's no bad side effects. Maybe the obvious side effect is that it makes you talk about it with passion.
Although this pill costs more then you can imagine, it paid for itself, so that all of us can have it like it's water. Like I said, this drug is free.

In case you haven't figure out what I'm talking about yet, here's a hint: this drug is Jesus.

I have know this drug for most of my life. I've accepted it before. But what I've never really did was to take it in. Fully swallow it down. Before this, I let my insecurities, miseries, anxieties and worries take over. No more.

I love the way my mind's eyes are opened. I love the way I have solutions for my miseries. I love the way He sets me free. But most of all, I love that fact that I know I'm in good hands.
You certainly feel wonderful.

A Generation's Hue

2011-11-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

Hi guys! (if you all are still stalking my blog)

I have something special to share with you guys today. Something that touched me when I first watched it. Something simple yet full of impact.

I just found out that my friends made a PSA video and named it "A Generation's Hue", in case you don't know what PSA means, it stands for Public Service Announcement.

I've watched it. And if the main actor (the father) wasn't a friend I know personally, I would have tear a little bit, rage a little bit, while watching the 1 minute video.
I guess it just feels weird to see someone you know act so violent all of a sudden, and he's not like that in real life. He's a God fearing guy in real life :)

So anyway, click this link to direct you to the video. It's actually a contest and they are in the top 10 finalist. That should say something

I've watched all the 9 other PSA videos, and I can honestly, unbias-ly tell you that "A Generation's Hue" is the best.
Watch it, and if you feel it's not good enough, don't vote. But if you think it really speaks out the message the video was carrying, vote.

Too sudden, too young

2011-11-01T19:20:00.001+08:00

I found out that the girl who move in after I moved out of my old room passed away a few days ago.

An eerie feeling crept upon me... because somehow, I felt like she's my replacement. She may not know me, she only knows she got a room to stay in PJ because I moved out.

She died from heart condition. Heard from my ex room-mate that she fainted while in the bathroom. Her mother felt weird that her daughter spent such a long time in the bathroom, but when she come around to checked, she was unconscious. By the time they sent her to the hospital, it was too late. Her heart stopped beating.

When I hear that story being told, I felt sad.
Still such young girl, probably around 19-20 years old. Yet her journey on earth ended. I wonder if she knew God. I wonder if she ever had the chance to get to know Him before she left :'(

I may not know her personally. But I found her facebook profile while going though my ex room-mate's profile.
Friends wrote on her wall. So many wishing her R.I.P.
I saw her face. I recognised her. I've seen her around campus before. Then I saw her photos taken with her family. Her mother smiled so happily while posing with her in the photos. I can only imagine how opposite her dear mother must have felt now.

Every life is precious.
It doesn't matter if everyone hates you when you're alive. It doesn't matter if you hate yourself or your life. As long as you've set foot on this earth, you have, in one way or another impacted someone's life. And when you leave, someone will mourn for you.

Because you see, all of us are connected.

No.

2011-10-28T15:57:00.000+08:00

Today I found out how fortunate I am to have parents who does not give me everything I want.

During my childhood, it was so difficult to get my mother to buy me any thing I want in the shopping mall.
Even if I begged, pout, pulled a long dark face or cried, she is always firm in her answer, No.
Don't get me wrong, my mother always provide me with things I need, just not all the things I want.
I want toys, I want candies, I want useless products that looks good. Unlike me, she knows those things aren't beneficial for me, so she needs to make the decision for me.

As I grew up, my mother starts to introduce me to responsibility and independence.
She would make me go to shops and buy stuff on my own. Cook lunch or dinner for the family. Give me the responsibility of looking after my younger siblings. If she and dad have to go out and run some errands, she would drill in me that I have to feed them and not let them stay up so late at night.

At that time I felt that she was so nagging and annoying. I swore to myself that I would never be a mother like that.

I understand now why she was so 'hard' on me. Because she was the eldest daughter in her family too. I used to complain for being the first child in the family.

She knows how important it was for the first-born to learn to be independent and responsible.
Ma, thank you for this hard to learn, yet precious lesson in life.

Yes.

2011-10-26T01:20:00.000+08:00

He remembers my name.

and when he said "Tammie, right?"
I was so freakishingly shy that I didn't have the guts to look at him in his eyes. whattheheck.

I wanted to headdesk myself when I got home and realised that I should've answered him:
"Yeah *insert smile* and you are XXXXX(his name, which I know but I'm not going to reveal here), right?"

Instead. You know what I replied him?

"Yes."

Y.E.S

One word.

No more.

Not even a glance.

He must think I'm Snow Queen or something.

HOW FORMAL CAN I GET.
LIKE, URGGGHHHH.

Why, Tammie, why.

Oh boy.

Woody agrees I suck.

Moustache uncle agrees too.

Everyone agrees.

He's not your discipline teacher, Tammie Tan Ming Ai.
Why don't you add a "Sir" behind your "Yes." Might as well, since you made it that formal. Gahhh.

Why.

Why can't I think clearly when I have the chance to properly interact with you. Why can't I stop being so madly shy. I want to look you in the eyes to let you know that you've made a good impression on me; not act like some cold stuck-up uni girl.

Why do you keep planting these nice memories..

The simplest church Service

2011-10-23T23:39:00.001+08:00

...can teach you the most valuable lesson. ya know?

Most of the time we, no, I want happening music for Praise & Worship session. I want a hilarious person to preach the sermon. But honestly, how impactful are those to me?

Today, with just 6 people, we gather in His name. We sang and then this Aunty, a friend of my mother, started sharing her personal testimony.

She is a petite and thin lady. She dresses in a demure way. Her hair is chopped in bob style and strains of whites are showing. Fingers on her left hand are curled in, in a way that is not obvious, but if you do pay attention, your eyes will always linger on them a second longer then they should.
I have a feeling her appearance does not justify her age. Wrinkles. Overly tanned skin. Perhaps its the hard years she had to endure working during her youth, or perhaps she just looks older then she really is, either way, she does look like a woman who is worn out physically. However, despite all that, she wears a smile that is warm and genuine. You can see that there is real joy and peace that radiates out of her.

She shared lots of things. About her old woman, how her mother fell and cut herself. How hard it was for her and how tired this unfortunate event made her. At first I was listening to her, nodding my head at all the correct moments and just wondering where all this is going...

Then, Aunty started talking about serving in church. Somehow, that caught my attention. She is the committee of the church. One of the few who was there to support the church from Day 1.

During church service yesterday, she was asked to care for the pastor's children, all 3 of them. Since the children's mother and grandma were in the choir and the pastor himself is preaching, she (as the Sunday School teacher) was the only one available to care for the children. The kids fell asleep in her arms during the service. Then it was time for photography session. For the committees to take a photo to be printed in the church's magazine.

It was during this time that her battle begin. With a child sleeping soundlessly in her arms, Aunty could not afford to go up to take the photo with the group. Yet, in her heart, she wanted so very much to do so. She said her heart felt sour watching all the committee went up for the group photo. I could relate to her at that moment. I know that feeling so well.

When she was relating this part to us, I can feel her pain.
You see, all her life, she has dedicated her time to serve God in that church. That church was home to her. She gave her effort to see it grow. The photo session was like a token of acknowledgement from the church in return. Yet she could not enjoy it.

By the time she finished this testimony, her eyes were slightly pink and her voice was shaky. I wanted to tear too.

Then, she turned to me and rox. For the first time since she started talking, she was looking directly at us. She told us she shared this today because of us, youngsters. She wanted to encourage us that no matter how hard is it to serve God, even if it seems like all is in vain, even if it seems like you're not going to gain any acknowledgement from anyone, NEVER give up. Never be discourage. Because God will reward is in the end. In His time.

This was the best 'sermon' I've had in a long time. Thank you, Aunty.

Healer

2011-10-22T02:45:00.000+08:00

If you've been in my life these few days you know its like some sort of drama.

Walking back in the rain?
Ignoring people out of the blue?
Getting mad for no apparent reason?
Getting into a huge argument with a close friend?

Those doesn't sound like me. At all.
If you could time travel and went back to predict to the me one year ago, things that would happen these few days, I would have told you in your face that you're dead wrong.

But alas. How sin can twist us. How the thought of evil and depressing thoughts can wrap us up in it's long, boney, creepy fingers. Never underestimate it's power- dark, hungry and lurking.

To be completely honest, it was all happening in my head- the getting mad for no reason thing. I was thinking depressing thoughts. Which well, surprise, surprise: made me depress. Then it made me angry. And the jokes which were meant to lighten the mood that evening seem to backfire.
Because in my head, I was a mess already. Then the jokes aimed at me came in & everyone finds it funny; while I was deep in depressing thoughts and a raging heart. It was not funny to me. It was the last straw.

Notice how emotional wrecked I've become.

It's sad.
I don't want things to be like this.
But I let them.
I welcome those thoughts.
I entertained them.

In the end?

I fell for the trap the evil one set up.

While being very distressed by what a mess I've gotten myself into, and reflecting about my life.. He spoke to me. I found out that I'm such a hypocrite. I cannot accept it when others make the same mistake over and over; but when I do it to my Father, I always beg/hope/expect Him to forgive me. He provided me 10 steps to be healed again :)

Wow.

Step 2 required me to put myself in their shoes. I did. And I see how they felt. So, I believe I owe them a proper apology.

If you guys are reading this, I'm truly sorry for being so immature and childish. My actions did not justify God. It was a shame to Him and me. All I can say now is I know where I've gone wrong. You can expect it never to happen again. Thank you for putting up with me.

But most of all, a big shout out to my Healer.

He healed me. Again.

Tickets? Check!

2011-10-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

Yes! The long battle for Planetshakers tickets is finally over. phew.

Went The Curve today to purchase the tickets. Got them from Cupcake Chic. A very cute cupcake shop.

At first I was slightly worried I couldn't find the place, or if I did find the place, they suddenly tell us they don't see the tickets there.

God was right when He told us not to worry.

Cupcake Chic is right outside the walkway of The Curve. We got to see it even before we step down of the IPC bus.

So thankful He provided us with everything we need today. Really. Very smooth transportation and purchasing of tickets. Almost thought we couldn't catch the IPC bus at Kelana Jaya but nope, it came the moment we step of the stairs of KJ LRT.

Now I can rest assure and count down for the day I get to sing and shout praises to God with all my brothers and sister in Him :D

Isaac joined us today. And while waiting in the bus we camwhored. What to do, I'm a female specie and Bryan's got a camera.

This is considered normal.

The "I'm-not-so-smart".

The "I-just-totally-saw-someone-too-cute-to-be-true"

The "I-think-I-just-pooped-my-pants"

Serious Isaac is serious.

Andddd I just want to include this because

Roxanne looks invisible,

Isaac looks so herp derp,

Bryan looks so creepy,

which makes me look like the most decent person here.

I FEEL BEAUTIFUL when I'm with you guys.

MWAH <3

Lastly, picture of the day titled "Troll Guy(s)"

I am never able to look at this without laughing.

meh-heh

Something New

2011-10-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

Despite being a movie all about fighting and cold hard steels, Real Steel was a surprisingly heart-warming story.

In the middle of watching the movie.. something stuck me..

Yes, people around me may be favoured more then me.. but the favour that comes from human beings are so conditional and bias.. As long as I know I have done my best for being who I am, favour from people around me are just bonuses. I should never go searching and chasing after them. Though sometimes it may be bitter, sometimes it may be hard to swallow.. But I know where I can go when I'm tired and cannot go on about this issue.

'Cause I know that no matter what.. I've already gained favour from the one who gives unconditional love to me.

I am His beloved.

2011-10-11T12:12:00.000+08:00

This has been annoying me for sometime.
At first I tried ignoring it.
Brush it of by saying, they're just trying to be friendly.

But doesn't seem to work.

So now I blog.

I don't know how to put this...

I just don't think it's always right to have everything planned. Not everything is meant to be planned out.

Especially not friendships.
Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe that's just my thinking.

Planned friendships... doesn't even sound genuine to me.
No matter how good the intentions are.. it just seems like a whole bunch of conspiracy. Like you're joining a gang or something. I know we love the same thing.. but does that really give you the right to plan out our friendship? How tight you want us to be? How 'best buddy' you want us to be?

And in all honesty, I don't mind AT ALL if you really have to plan this friendship of ours... as long as you don't place that plan in my face and tell me how's it going to be like.
Keep it to yourself.
Work it out and let me think that it wasn't all planned out.

AT LEAST you give me to decency to feel natural about it. I'd appreciate that very much.

Me and my first world problem.

Don't know why this has been bothering me.

Ah Ma's Birthday

2011-10-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

This woman.

She's my grandma.

She's where I get my nyonya blood from.

I call her Ah Ma ever since I was born.

Yesterday, we celebrated her birthday.

Well, it wasn't as fun as I wish it to be.. Reason is because we don't have a full & proper family gathering.

Both Shyang and Yin couldn't make it. Shyang has exams and Yin is still rolling in New Jersey =\

Thus, our family picture below is not complete. Sigh.

However, with the help of modern technology and some wise thinking, I mange to make our family portrait picture perfect!

Proudly, I present you, the Tan Family: Ta-Da!

Yin and Shyang look pretty good here if you ask me.

Charming, as usual.

Birthday lunch as normal as any lunch at a 4 star restaurant in Melaka could be.

In other words, it was boring because some people were missing :\

So I decided shift my focus on the beauty of my younger sister and cousin, as they ate.

Mmmm..Lovely.

Stunning.

Utterly graceful <3

I'm captivated.

As you can see from both models expression, the food is good.

Here are more pictures so I don't have to write any more words to entertain you as you scroll through this post.

To my ah ma, happy birthday :)

As I took this picture with her, I realised how small she is.

She's mini and cute. That's Tammie's grandma.

You're a wonderful grandma.

I love you.

I love everything you do for your family.

It happened.

2011-10-10T00:05:00.002+08:00

It's so amazing what I asked from Father and get it.

You know.. He's not like fathers here on earth.
Even when I don't voice it out to Him directly...He knows my heartbeat. He knows my thirst. If He knows it's really important that I have it. He lets me have it. Even if it's a stupid request.

And that makes me want choke with tears... Cause that just shows how much He's in touch with me.. even when I choose to abandon Him.

I wrote my last post here a day ago, saying that I'm ready to live a life with a renewed mind on His love and grace. I got one today.

As I was reading Father's Love Letter today, something stirred in my heart. And I became aware of things that were said to me earlier, I just never felt it with this much certainty before.

Everything made perfect sense. Why I suffered. Why I fall. It all goes back. Way back.

Temptation.

Satan.

The first bite.

Sin.

The curse.

Suffering on mankind.

Until now.

But you see, I need the renewal EVERYDAY for as long as I live. I'm not worried. Because if He can answer me today, I'm so definitely certain He will not refuse to renew my mind tomorrow and for-evermore, as long as I'm willing to be renewed.

I learn to love Him this much more today.
I know my love for Him is temperamental & conditional, but I'm determined to keep this love burning. I want to fan it. I want to keep it growing. I want to keep it healthy.

My eyes were opened. May it never be closed again by the roaring lion.

Finally.

2011-10-07T02:31:00.001+08:00

Finally, it's out of my system.
All those 'annoying problems' built-up. It's all flushed out. I'm not the only one who knows things any more.
And I'm glad. You know? It's like something heavy has been lifted off. I feel lighter.

Still, I know I'm not completely healed. Because it's not from You. That moment will come. I will be waiting. Meanwhile, prepare my heart for that moment.

I'm tired of living a life where I don't have a renewed mind of your constant unconditional love and grace. I need an ultimate confirmation from You. Even if it's a true turning point in my life.

I want this. I don't know if I'm ready, but I want this.

2011-10-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

Shall I allow myself to indulge in a memory which requires nothing but perhaps results in superficial expatiations?

I'm tempted to go for it. But I know deep inside that, unless I make it clear to myself that this is only a friction of a memory which provides a moment of joy and have no power to shape the future, I could not afford to go on.

I have decided to linger on the memory a little longer.
Why? Because I have more annoying problems to face in life now. This is perhaps my little getaway. Something I can enjoy alone in my mind, that no one can take from.

I am fully aware that memory has no power to shape the future into what I dream of it to be, but since I am aware of that, I shall have no expatiations.

And if I am indeed fooling myself, I will be responsible of all my heartbreaks.

2011-10-06T00:59:00.000+08:00

Father, this is getting too difficult.

'But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.'

2 Corinthians 12:9

Again, I'm glad there's a word in respond to how I feel.

I'm still struggling.. but now I can rest assure that you'll give me the strength I need to overcome this. All I need is your strength and time.

Thank you, Paul of Damascus.

2011-09-09T13:13:00.000+08:00

When will you stop ignoring me, Father?

“If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me."

Psalm 66:18

I learnt my lesson. But then again, I always say that. But I know I cannot live without You any more. Please, please, please look at me again, Father. This time you really let me have a taste of how it's like to bare 1/10 of the consequences. And I can't even..

Like better then a G6

2011-01-28T19:39:00.000+08:00

OmigoshladidablessyouchocolatebrownieGodisawesomeeeicantbelievethisishappeningbutletsnotgettooexcitedweee!!

Anyone understand what I'm trying to say up there?
That's what happens when I get over excited. No words can describe.

I'm feeling better then a G6. BETTER then a G6.

Can't imagine right?

I'll make life easier for you. Basically I look:

now.

like I don't care.

BUT this is me inside:

and this

and THIS.

Definitely this.

I PRAY that nothing goes wrong. gagagagagaga.

Mother

2011-01-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

I find that studying outside made me miss my mum more then I expected.

d'awww.

So, whenever I miss my mum. I'll annoy her on Facebook chat. Like this,

mamamamamamamamama!

Now if you understand Chinese and if you notice, my mum replied something in Chinese.

Yeah you can guess. She replied 'Sha poh' which means 'silly girl' in English.

heh.

Love ya!

13 has the best dress in the House ;)

2011-01-17T11:00:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS DRESS.

Rawr!

Olivia Wilde at the 68th Golden Globes Awards

aka

Thirteen(13) in House

Gosh.

I don't normally like sequins or sparkly dresses as much as Taylor Swift.

BUT this dress is an exception.

This dress is fineeeee!

It's like a pretty night sky translated into a dress.

aw.

Can't believe I'm blogging just to proclaim my love for a dress D:

Albinism- a blessing

2011-01-16T16:31:00.002+08:00

So most everyone knows what Albinism is. People with albinism are called albinos. If you still don't know what albinism is click THIS.

Animals with albinism looks mysterious and majestic, in a way.

Humans with albinism looks stunning. To me at least.

I used to know a boy who was an albino during my childhood. His skin was the color of cream and his hair was yellowish white. I used to be in awe whenever I pass by the boy. I envy his perfectly white skin.

I remember mum telling me that was a person suffering from albinism. I was surprised she used to word 'suffer' because to me, it's like a blessing- to have such milky white skin. Mum continued to tell me that people who have albinism could not stay under the sun. They will easily get sun burn and fall sick. Whenever they go out, they need to be covered in lotion or clothing to protect their skin.

My heart fell when I heard those words. I enjoy playing outdoors. I enjoy the freedom of running in broad daylight. I pity and envy them at the same time.

Still I am captivated by albinos. They are rare. And they are beautiful. I did some searching on the net and I came across a few albinos who became models. Yes, fashion models.

Connie Chiu

Connie is of Chinese heritage.

Born in Hong Kong.

But because of her albinism her whole family moved to Sweden- where I suspect, not just the sun is kinder to her condition but also the people. Since it is not uncommon to see fair skinned people with platinum blonde hair there, unlike Hong Kong.

She was the world's first albino model.

Diandra Forrest

Diandra is an African American.

She struggled a lot being born as a white in a community of black people.

Read about her full story HERE. It's really worth reading. I assure you.

But after all she struggled through, she manage to become a fashion model.

And I think she's a really pretty one too.

Shaun Ross

Shaun is also of African American heritage.

He lives in Paris now and is still a fashion model.

Lastly,

Stephen Thompson

Haha. I think Stephen is one hot albino model =]

Can't find much about him though.

All I know is, he's a Caucasian and a albino and a model.

I think its time to start seeing albinos in a different view. They're not weirdos. They're not freaks. They're humans. They suffer from some health complications related to albinism too. So it's not all fun and games being albino. They have their share of pain.

But from the way I see it, albinism is a from of blessing in disguise.

Starting of a new sem.

2011-01-14T21:25:00.002+08:00

Gaaah.

Andrew Garfield is going to be the next Spider Man.
TRUST ME.. he's going to be the next Hollywood hottie tween girls will be ga-gaing over.

I don't know if I'm going to in Team Andrew yet. But I liked him enough in Social Network. He can pull of that puppy dog eye look.

Well, not that I'm looking for a new actor to swoon over. I am completely content with swooning over Ian Somerhalder now.

Mmm.

OKAY! I don't normally blog about hot actors. Only I do it now because I'm feeling like crap.

Yesterday I was like:

when thinking of going back to campus.

Today?

I feel exactly like this:

DRAWING 2! T______T

Oh well. Better suck it up.

I'm looking forward to meeting up with Yew. Teng. And half bro.

Oh.

And Chinese New Year too.

Birthday Burger

2010-12-19T20:16:00.000+08:00

Cousin Yin's birthday was yesterday. She wanted to have a birthday burger instead of a birthday cake.

When she found out that EuroDeli serves the biggest burger in Malaysia, she knows where to go for her birthday celebration :)

Euro Deli serves all non halal food and I guess I can say all the stuff they serve there are very Europe.

Big servings.

Even for beer.

Hello people.

He is excited to get such a big glass of beer.

I am ~~not~~ related to him.

Euro Deli is also famous for their super size pork burger.

They even have a special challenge for it.

If a person can finish the whole burger in 45 minutes, they won't have to pay for the burger plus, they will receive RM100 and a certificate acknowledging that they won the challenge.

But before you say 'SO EASY! LET ME TRY!'

Check out their hall of fame first.

Below are the people who tried, but didn't manage to complete the challenge:

That's ALOT of people.

Full view:

Only 3 people won the challenge. lol.

Check out some funny things written on the polaroid of the challengers:

PWNED!

These 3 friends tried all at the same time.

REST IN PIECE(S) they wrote.

4 BIG MAC EASIER.

lol xD

3 proud winners.

So what do you guys think?

Only 3 winners out of the dozen over participants.

That burger must be HUGE.

aaaaaaaand you're right.

The burger is called the Matterhorn.

Tips: If you guys wanna order this burger, make a reservation for the order first.

If you don't, you'll have to wait 1 hour for the cook to prepare it.

Yinnie with her Matterhorn burgah.

The pork patty is large O.O''

It took us 6 grown ups, 3 guys and 3 girls, to finish it up.

Would you take up the challenge? :)

Is that...a RIVER in a SEA?

2010-12-16T14:09:00.002+08:00

It's been forever since I last blog about something amazing.

I found this on yew's tumblr reblog and it was mind-blowing.

Have you ever heard of a river inside a sea?

It's scientifically impossible for a river to be in a sea.. But a group of scuba divers in Mexico photographed pictures of something that looks like a river underwater.

Underwater photographer Anatoly Beloshchin took these photographs

This is a place called Cenote Angelita, Mexico.

It's a famous diving spot for advance divers.

At first when I saw the photos I was like, are you sure this is underwater??

The scuba diver in the photo confirms it is.

You can see tree branches, dead leaves and soil.

This place looks like a world of its own, defying science and logic.

It would be wonderful to tell you that it really is a river you see in the photos but alas, that layer of 'river water' you see at the bottom of each photos are not actually river water.. It is in fact, Hydrogen Sulfide gas.

You know that smell when someone farts? Yeah, that's one of the wonders of hydrogen sulfide.

Hydrogen sulfide only accumulate in places where:

1. there is little oxygen

2. ventilation is low

Thus, we get the accumulation of H2S in Cenote Angelita, which looks like a river. Still amazing, non? :)

Anyhow, matters not if you are disappointed that it is not an actually river, view this video of the scuba divers swimming in Cennote Angelita where the 'river' is. The place is beautifully mysterious :')

Choulyew's surprise

2010-12-14T00:34:00.000+08:00

See this girl?

It was her birthday- the 12th of Dec.

I LOVE seeing people's face when they find out they are pranked. That expression is priceless.

I told Birthday Girl I was going to meet Alex and wanted her to come with me.
I finally saw the epic expression I was waiting for, in the cinema when Julie and the gang walked in and sat beside me. Priceless! XD

After movie, we dragged Birthday Girl to Sushi king.

Out comes the phone for the pleasure of cam whoring :)

I was rather happy because of these photos I got:

look up!

aww, cute faces :D

THIS is happiness caught on camera.

THIS is 'yerrrr..' caught on camera.

The cake came out!

Count the 'e', there's 20 altogether.

Birthday Girl turns 20 that day.

Inspecting her cake.

She's checking to see if it's real ;)

lol. Look at the cheeks. PUFFEY!

She has puffy cheeks XD

Cutting the cake with a gleeful expression.

We couldn't get a normal photo that day thanks to Kit.

lol.

LET'S EAT CKAE WITH CHOPSTICKS!

That's how we roll in Sushi King. heh =P

Who's the prettiest girl that day? XD

Okay, truth is, we made her do this pose.

Then we made her post this as her facebook profile picture for 12th of Dec

until 12midnight, then only can she take this photo down.

AND she really did it.

What a good sport :D

photo credit to ChyeBoon

It was fun.

After all that, what I want to say is already in the photo.

*points*

Happy? :)

#Day31 One Last Moment

2010-12-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

I know I haven't apologize yet.

Sorry.

I mean it.

I haven't been carrying out my responsibility. The worst part is.. I haven't been a very good cousin. You know that. Sadly, I only realize that today.
I volunteered to do things without thinking about the responsibility that follows.

I guess this horrible feeling inside me is a punishment. Spoonfuls of guilt mixed with a tinge of self-anger.

So, my last moment to share.
It was when I realized that I don't really mind about short-lived things anymore, instead I focus on long term things. For this situation, at first, I didn't think I did anything wrong. I don't get why you were so pissed at me. I just felt that you've over reacted. I didn't even feel guilty. But then a feeling inside stopped me. I realized that if I don't apologize, I may lose this awesome cousin I've had. Thinking back, it was my fault. I agreed to it, but I never fulfilled it.

I was rather shocked at myself at this discovery.
A year ago, I would've been outraged and hold resentment at you.. But today? I just accept the fact that I've screwed up and try not to repeat it in the future.
No resentment, no hatred.

Exactly what the feeling inside me said.

I wonder if it has something to do with all the talking with Daddy Up There lately? He's been good to me. He opened up my eyes to many things lately.

Yes, I've messed things up. And I'm truly sorry. I promise not to be rash next time.
A moment of self discovery taught me all that.

Day #29 Your Aspirations

2010-12-05T13:04:00.001+08:00

Welcome me back! haha

I know I've been MIA for a period of time. In reality, that period of time is my short sem. So now, I'm done with short sem, back to carefree days :D

Now, to continue #Day 29. lol. Don't laugh.

So, 2 days ago me,Yew, my cousins and bro went to DUMC for Madworld Performance. Madworld is the name of the play. La poster:

All of the performers are local, volunteers and TREMENDOUSLY talented.
I'm terrible at explaining story lines, so if you're dying to know what the play is about you're not gonna find out about it in this post. lol. BUT, you're not too late to go see the play for yourself. And that my friends, is even better then reading about it on my blog. You get to be there to FEEL it. EXPERIENCE it. LIVE it.

That day, MORE then 3 thousand people turned up. There were basically no parking left around Section 13. People were lining up just to get in the auditorium. Late comers were turned away because the auditorium were packed beyond it's limit of 3 thousand seats. Some people were even standing up to watch the play. God is good :D

I'm not even exaggerating, take a look:

This was the only photo I was allowed to take.. no photos are allowed after the play has begun :(

I'm pretty sure my eyes were the size of ping-pong balls throughout the play because the dancers and singers were absolutely stunning. Some are my age. One of the main characters is only 10! And she's just as stunning as the rest!

To view the photos of the play, click here the camera-> [o'']

Photos were captured by the talented photographer Grace Tan. Her works are amazing! :D

For more information on Madworld, click the heart -> <3.

Anyone who hadn't experience Madworld before, PLEASE do.
It's worth all 1 and an half hour of your time.
Seriously.

Okay, so after experiencing this play, I felt that I've not done much for Him. I admire those performers who can give their all to God. My previous aspirations are somewhat concealed by this event. I want to rededicate my life to Him. Can that be my new aspiration?

Day #28 Something that you miss

2010-10-23T18:33:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year during childhood.

Is it just me or is Chines New Year each year getting less fun then the year before? :(

I miss the times I can eat anything I want and not worry about getting fat or pimples.

Missing the times when a single Ang Pow can make me happy.

Miss the times when we laughed and play all day, and when we got tired, we just curl up in the carpet sleeping, then mum and dad will pick us up to bed.

Day #27 Your Favorite Place

2010-10-22T20:04:00.000+08:00

ANYWHERE! As long as I have people I love with me :D

To me, who I'm with can change how I feel about a place.

But... If I really have to name a place.. It would be Bukit Tinggi. THE WEATHER IS just awesome. Do you know the sky looks bluer there? And the clouds looks extra puffy! Puffeh clouds, puffeh clouds, my favorite thing to see in the sky :D
The grass are greener, literally greener. The wind is cooling. The air is FRESH! MWAH! I love it there.

So all you people who wants to come visit this subarashi place, come! Before global warming happens and make Bukit Tinggi as hot as Melaka or any other place in Malaysia D:

by teabing

Also, can we like, help stop global warming.. let's start by not using Styrofoam and stop using any plastic bags,walk more, use less air con...?

by dreamorphosis

'cause if not.. my little piece of heaven on earth will be gone soon T___T
Please?

Day #26 Your Fears

2010-10-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

Not being loved. Not being liked. Not being respected.

There I've said it.

Day #25 A first

2010-10-19T10:42:00.000+08:00

I keep thinking of the first day in UTAR as my first.

The first time I met yew and teng :)

First time walking to campus.

First time completing an assignment.

First time staying away from home for weeks.

First time being completely in charge of my life.

It's amazing how firsts always seems like the best memories around.

It's been 3, almost 4 months I've gotten to know yew and teng and I can't complain. Even though UTAR doesn't have the best facilities in the world, but having the right friends with you certainly help balance it out ;)
So far, I love the learning experience here :)

3 more years to go x)

Day #24 Something that makes you cry

2010-10-18T14:02:00.000+08:00

Death of loved ones makes me cry. Really bad.

I cried at Ah kong's funeral. Really bad.
I don't think I've cried so bad in frount of so many people before..

Dead pets make me cry too. I once had a couple of Guppie fishs. I was cleaning their tank when one of the fish jumped out of the tank, committing suiside. That kind of shocked me and as a result I cried. lol. Not because I was emotionally attached to my pet. HAHAHA.

So that's all for today.. I shall continue tomorrow.

Day #23 Something that makes me feel better

2010-10-18T13:45:00.000+08:00

Almost everything makes me feel better.

A warm cup of milo

A hug

Comforting words

..aaaand..

a saviour.

My laptop died on me yesterday.

It wouldn't start now.

I called my uncle and after giving instructions and nothiong worked, he concluded that my Windows 7 is corrupted :'(

So I'll have to format everything and re-install Windows again. Which means I'm very upset now. I feel like I'm handicap without my laptop :(

But you know what cheers me up? The fact that I can still go online with the campus's computers.

Granted, they're not the fastest or the most advanced desktops around.. but it's good enough for me :)

Praying that my laptop will recover soon :S

Dear Lord, please send a savouir for my laptop?

Day #22 Something That Upsets You

2010-10-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

Change of plans. That's what makes me upset. Well, at least it did today.

Especially something that I've been looking forward to a long time, and it gets cancel makes me cranky. Upset.

I just don't like it when I get all excited and happy looking forward for something I hoped will happened, but something happened and then all my built up excitement comes crashing down =.=

But I am aware that, sometimes, change is necessary. It's just that.. I get annoyed.. at first.. then I'm okay. I'll always be okay in the end =)

Day #21 Another Moment

2010-10-15T17:11:00.001+08:00

It was 1997. I was 7 years old.

I remember being woke up by my parents. They were calling me to wake up. But I was still sleepy. I opened my eyes slightly and realized it was morning already.

As I rubbed sleep off my eyes, I finally heard what my parents were making a fuss about.

'Tammie, look out the window! It snowed last night while we were sleeping!'

I was FULLY awake by then. I rushed to my bedroom window, pushed away the curtain and sure enough, the once green ground is now covered in pure white pretty clean snow. Do you know how beautiful untouched snow looks like from the 2nd floor?
It looks like God placed a white blanket on top of the ground.

Photo from Google, but I carefully choose this one

because it resembles the closest to the scene in my memory.

That was the moment I saw snow for the first time in my life.

Oh, me and my family was in US then.
It was the first day of winter snow, and our family (being typical Asians all of our lives) had been waiting for this day (counting down to the first snow) since we stepped foot on American soil ;)

I guess this is another moment in my life. I remember holding my breath and just soaking in the glory and beauty of it all.

Me and my brother gladly finished our breakfast quickly and put on 3 layers compromising of sweaters, coat and jacket and we raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan outside to play with real snow for the first time ever.

Oh I also remembered Kevin and I even ate snow. We got sick a few days later. Lol.

Hey don't blame us, snow looks so clean and fresh and pretty. We just wanted to try it in our mouths :P

The fever was worth is XD

Day #20 This Month

2010-10-14T17:30:00.000+08:00

I've:

1. Worn contacts on all my waking hours for a whole week, 1st time in my life.

2. Started playing Baking Life on Facebook.

3. Started watching Bones

Season 4 now :D

4. Went to Kuantan.

5. Learnt a few new Photoshop skills.

6. Slept and wake up whenever I want

(Sem break babeh!)

done all these things this month.

So sad sem break is going to end so soon :'(

Day #19 Something You Regret

2010-10-13T09:31:00.002+08:00

Getting myself short sighted on purpose.

That's one of the major regrets in my life.

photo from Whangster's dA

I was only 10 when my then best friend got herself a pair of spectacles.

Being a curious girl, I asked her to let my try on the specs.

I looked into the mirror and found that I look awesome seeing myself in specs.

I know.

Stupid stupid 10 year old thinking.

Give me a clown nose and the 10 year old me will think I'll look awesome too =.=

So anyway from that day on I had a mission- to make myself short sighted so I can get a pair of spectacles too.

I love reading. Mum always says never to read while laying down to protect the eyes. Right? That's what all grown ups used to say. Well, I used that technique to spoil my eyes.

I would always lay down on my bed, reading. After like a month of doing so, I finally got what I wanted.

I realized my eyesight was starting to get blurry and I can't see things from far.

photo from Roketina's dA

So yeah, that's how I got short sighted. On purpose. Damn me.

And to make matters worse, I found out that I've inherited my father's family side of gene, which is bad eyesight. Meaning I'm more prone to getting short sighted, I don't have to do it on purpose, I would've get spoil my eyes at some stage of my life. I just speed things up.
All the adult family members in my dad's side wears glasses. ALL.

I am feeling remorseful as I type now D:

Crap crap crap.

Day #18 Your Favorite Birthday

2010-10-12T20:32:00.000+08:00

In my entire life, this was THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!

That was my most memorable birthday ever.

Ever.

Eve..

Well, you get the point :)

Why?

Because one of my best friends planed it- Nancy Yap (and Karnee and the gang)

The whole class was involved, including a few from the class next door.

THE CAKE WAS AWESOME! Chocolate Indulgence from Secret Recipe.

I was really really touched. But I couldn't bring myself to cry because I was too excited and happy.

Even until today, I still think of this as the best birthday I had :)

Day #17 Your Favorite Memory

2010-10-11T20:33:00.002+08:00

I was sitting at my desk doing my homework.

The bell just rang, recess was over.

You came walking in the classroom. I can see you were in a good mood. You were smiling and joking.

You saw me sitting there. I smiled. You smiled. We both knew you're in a playful mood.

Then you suddenly started walking fast.
I didn't think so much, so I turned back to face my homework.

The next moment when I looked up, I saw your face sweeping down on me like an eagle sweeping down on it's pray. It was so fast that I didn't have time to react.

I guess you were shocked too,because you quickly pulled away. Yeah, I blushed but I didn't think much of it afterwards, because you were always teasing me like that.

I got a text message from you after school. You apologized for being so playful, you said you went over the line.

I guess you can say I was even more shocked, I didn't expect you to apologize, because you didn't do anything very wrong to me.. but the fact that you apologized made me replay the scene in my mind again. It made me realized how close our faces came O.o''

This memory stayed with me all the time. Maybe it's not the ideal 'favorite' memory for people, but it was definitely the most memorable for me.

So, yeah, my fellow blog readers may get a little confused reading this post, but that's the whole point. lol.

Day #16 Your first kiss

2010-10-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

I'll leave this space to be filled up when the time comes ;)

mum, you're not reading my blog are you? >__<

Even though I've nothing to blog about on this title, it makes me remember a quote:

Girls worth kissing are not easily kissed.

No self-praise intended here.. just kind of my motto in relationships.

ha, who's gonna go back through all my blog posts just to read this post?

Day #15 Your Dream

2010-10-09T20:58:00.000+08:00

I've always wanted to be famous.

I used to write these little stories, you know? Something like short stories.
And there're always about love, boy-girl relationships.

Well, so I started dreaming of being famous for writing novels, like my favorite authors Nicholas Sparks and Mag Cabot. I was only 14 then.

Later, I found out that my vocabulary is only limited to words like 'awesome' and 'amazinggg' so I kinda gave up that dream.

But then, I fell in love. And from then on, my dream was changed.

I love taking photographs.

I love traveling around the world.

My dream would sound a little far fetched... but.. I want to be a world renowned photographer.

LAFF NAO N EU DAI!

anyone get my secret code? :D

Click HERE and change 'English To English', copy this code, paste it, then click 'listen' and you'll crack the secret code ;)

I want to be a photographer.

A good one.

No, scratch that, an amazinggg one.

I don't want to be a photographer who holds that camera and looks cool, but gives 'meh' photos.

I don't want to be the photographer who has all these fancy gadgets but don't know how to master them.

I don't want to just be 'another' photographer.

I want all my photos to tell a story.

To bring tears to your eyes.

To bring joy to your face.

To bring a smile on your lips.

To make you pause and think.

To make you catch your breath when you look at my photos.

Can I?

So, yea, that's my dream.

It's big.

But I really hope it comes true.

Day #14 What you wore today

2010-10-08T20:49:00.000+08:00

I wore t-shirt with shorts today.

T-shirt

and shorts

photos from Google

I can't blog too much now, must learn new skill in photoshop XD

see ya!

Day #13 This Week

2010-10-07T22:11:00.000+08:00

My mum asked me first thing when she saw me on Facebook today 'How was it like being a BIG SISTER for your cousins this week?'

I'm not kidding when she caps lock 'BIG SISTER', what? Is that like a secret code or something?

I mean I am a big sister even at home. Hello? Mum, you gave birth to me, you should know? =.=

I spent this week in Kuantan. hehe.

And guess what? I life a healthier life here. lol. I sleep before 2am everyday okayyy. So amazinggg right? I can see my pimples disappearing as well =D

I'm at Kuantan babysitting my little cousins. 17, 14 and 10 years. When I told my friend this, he was like, 'You're only 3 years apart from the eldest.' That made me =.=''

haha, okay so I'm not that big enough to babysit them, but I still do it, coz I wanna spend more time with them when their parents are overseas :)

Let me introduce them:

First, Roxanne. I call her Roxy sometime. hehe.

Roxy & Jared

Roxy & Jared 2 xD

She's the eldest. The one who loves art and photography.

It was her influence that I love photography too :)

Next, Rowei. The middle child. She's the one with better memory. HAHA Roxy, no offence hor =P

She's also always making funny faces XD

Lastly, Jared boy. lol. The youngest and only boy in the trio.

He's another funny face maker.

Jared loves watching disturbing cartoons. He influenced me to like watching The Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack

and I introduced him to Charlie the Unicorn. Muahahah XD

So back to the topic. This week, I cooked lunch for them. Which was better then cooking lunch at home, because their kitchen is so nais. lol.

I felt like an adult this week. haha. I know. I am. But staying at home with this 3 kids, well you know XD
What I did this week in a quick recap:

Helped Roxy make her poster for school

Brought Jared to the playground

where he met a new friend to play ball with x)

Jared learning a new trick

GOAL!!

lol.

Apart from that I watched a lot of Bones. But I'm still at Season 2 T__T

Slept a lot.

Wore my contacts lens tooooo much.

Because I left my glasses at Bkit Tinggi.

Wonder what damage I've done to my eyes T__T

oh wells.

Anyway this week was fun.

Let's do it again! XD

Day #12 What's in your bag

2010-10-06T15:55:00.000+08:00

This is easy.

I've poured out all the contents of my bag, here, take a look.

A Canon 500D DSLR

it's battery

my purse

my handphone

RM10

an ATM withdrawal recite

keys

comb

tweezers

OXY wet facial wipe

'My Journey' daily devotional booklet

I still dunno why I choose to buy a blue & white strip bag. It's mainly because of its size I believe.
I wanted a huge bag, so I can carry my camera with me all the time. I also like the beach-y feeling the bag gives. heh.

The camera is the most important object in my bag. Also the most expensive. I always take out the battery when I'm not using it, to make sure the battery doesn't drain.

My purse was given to me by mum. Well, actually I took it because mum never used it. I was like 'Ma, I need a new purse, can we go buy one? Oh, wait... you're not using this are you?' and it became mine form then on XD

RM10 was out of my purse because I didn't bother to put it inside after I took it out. lol. I'm that lazy. ha.

My house key chain is of a wooden doll that looks like a voodoo doll. The key chain was one of my (16th year old? *forgotten*) birthday present.

Nixsoderm is like the best cream around. You can use it for scratches, light burn, mosquito bite, and pimples. It's so amazinggggg. Even though it stinks. yeah. lol.

I wasn't aware of this before, but after seeing what's inside my bag, I realized that I'm quite a clean freak..*gasps*

.____.

I had no idea.

OXY facial wipe, tweezer and comb all proves that.

Ahh, well, I could've been worse.

I wouldn't say I'm a really religious girl, but I try to do morning devotions daily. Thus, 'My Journey' booklet :)

Actually, I'm a REALLY LOW mantainance girl! As you can see form the contents of my bag.

No make up thingy majiggy, no PSP, no sunglasses, no sunscreen... heck, come to think of it, my bag doesn't even look like a female's bag O.o

But whateva :D

I am happy with the contents of my bag and there's not a single day that can go by where I do no need the stuffs from my bag :D

Day #11 Your siblings

2010-10-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

I'm sure I talked a lot about my siblings in my blog.. like the 12 year difference between my little sister and me, and my annoying brother.

So, I shall blog about their personality this time.

My brother, Kevin and I are 4 years apart. He used to be seriously cute when he was a baby. Chubby cheeks, cute face, dimpled smile.

Kevin when he was 10 years old and my then 5 year old baby sister.

But adolescent is a monster to Kevin. Ever since he hit 13, he's become emo boy. Not just emo, he's a freakin poser too.

Emo boys wears make up.

Especially if it's mascara.

Mum is so going to pinch him if she sees this photo.

Poser is the one kicking.

but I must say, his mid-air kicks are good.

He's a mafia too.

he looks ugly in this photo, but that's the point XD

jk.

Actually, my brother is a pretty good lookin' guy.

left hand side in this photo.

Oh shut up, I'm just going to say it this once, Kevin's good looking.

he looks like Justin Bieber here. HAHA.

My brother plays guitar.

My dad's influence.

Kevin also plays football, he's always following football matches which he will discuss with dad. But he's currently more into basketball now.

His taste in music is terrible. It goes from pop to punk rock to sentimental to rock to hard rock to kind of heavy metal rock. I CAN BASICALLY DIE LISTENING TO THE MUSIC HE LISTENS TO. There.

He does read more. So technically he's smarter then me. He knows about stuff like the Freemasons, famous communism leaders and much more.

The one thing I hate about my brother is that he's so freaking EMO. Whenever he's in his emo mood, he wouldn't answer me. All he does is sulk, like a girl. =.=

But I'm still glad I have him as my brother. Even though he's emo.

Next, my little sister. Rachel.

kissy kiss =X

Bunny ears! XD

She says and does the cutest things. But one thing about my sister is that she loves watching tv and reading books. Cartoons especially.

Whenever she's reading or watching tv, NOTHING CAN DISTRACT HER. I MEAN NOTHING.

You can call her for a million times, but her eyes will still be glued to the book or the television set.

It's so annoying I tell you! >__<

BUT I still love my baby sister. Maybe a little more then my bro, but he's the emo one who asked for it =.=

All in all, I love you guys! No matter how annoying, irritating, disturbing you guys are, both of you are my little bro and sis and I will always be your big Jie Jie..

so SUCK IT UP and live with it XD

Day #10 What you wore today

2010-10-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

What I wore today was just t-shirt and pants because I didn't go out today, I wore the same thing the whole day.

I can't believe this is all I'm going to blog about today =.=''

I did some photographing today :)

made me smile.

my cousin, Jerad.

Music <3

Day #9 Your beliefs

2010-10-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

I've been a Christian all my life.

But my parents have not.

My dad was a teen when he started going to church. My grandpa was so angry when he found out that he drag my dad and threatened to scold the pastor in church. But my grandpa never got to scold the pastor that day because he couldn't find that church. My dad said a large lorry was blocking the church, so grandpa couldn't find it.
I believe that wasn't a coincidence.

Usually, people, especially Asians, think that Christianity is a 'Western religion'.
Actually, to be precise, Jesus was born in Jerusalem, Israel. Israel is Middle East. Middle. Not East, not West :)
It's just that most white people are Christians. But I wouldn't bet on that now. Most white people these days prefer not to have a religion.
Believing in Him doesn't mean I give up my culture and my roots. I still celebrate Chinese New Year. I still eat with chopsticks. I still have a Chinese name :)

I like to think that my faith, Christianity is not just a religion. It's a relationship, with God.

It's about talking to Him everyday.

It's about reading His word daily.

It's about learning to trust Him in difficult situations.

It's about being a better person for Him.

I believe in a baby born centuries ago, named Jesus. I believe he died on the cross, not by mistake, but to complete the mission he came to earth for. I believe he was the son of God. I believe in heaven and hell. I believe that there's salvation in Jesus.

Some people may find may belief hard to believe or accept. Others may think it's utter crap.

All I can say is, I hope you'll respect my belief, as I will respect your's :)

Okay, I guess that's the most basic stuff about my beliefs. I don't usually blog about my beliefs because I don't want people to feel like I'm shoving my faith in your face.

Pardon me if you think so, I am merely describing my faith in this post.

Till tomorrow, see ya! :D

Day #8 A moment

2010-10-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

I remember a moment.
It was when I was still a little girl. I can't really remember how old am I. But I was small.

I remember my dad playing the guitar. He was singing a song, and I was just bobbing my head along with him, reading the lyrics form his lyric book.

I've never heard the song before but still I sang it like I knew it.

At first, it was just like any other song for me. But as I keep singing and the more I sang the more I begin to like that song.
At that moment, I guess I fell in love with music. Or more precisely, understand the beauty of music.

By the time me and dad finish singing 'On Top of The World' I was asking him to play and sing the song again and again.

Well, that's my moment.
teehee.

Day #7 Your Day

2010-10-01T23:01:00.001+08:00

I woke up around 6am today. lol. Why?
Because I wanted to eat the toast bread mum made for Kev & Rach as breakfast. It was so niceeeeeeee because mum put honey on top of the toast and I ate 3 yummy toast bread with my eyes half open and mind still in lala land.

BUT I am positively sure I ate toast bread and it was like heaven :D

After the 3rd toast bread I walked like a zombie back to my bed and *plop* back to sleep.

The next time I opened my eyes is because the house phone was ringing like mad.

*RINGGGGGGGG RING RINGGGGGGG RINGG*

Alright alright! I'm awake already.

So I stumbled out of bed, but just as I took the phone and said 'Hello?'
The line went dead. Yeah, DEAD. Thanks for the wake up call.

I knew it was mum calling, so I called her back. I was still blur as I just woke up.
Mum told me I don't have to cook because her school is having a party of some sort.

I literally shouted 'YEAH!' By then I am totally awake :D

So I end up watching Bones on pps for the rest of the morning. heehee.

Bones is as gory as CSI, but they still have a sense of humor ;)

I likey.

Mum came back from school so I helped her make jelly and tuna for a gathering tonight.

I made the apple tuna again XD

That night, we went to Aunty Penee's house for Daniel and Anabelle's goodbye party.

Daniel and Anabelle are siblings and our neighbor. They're moving to KL soon, so we had a gathering for them.

We also celebrated Danial's early birthday.

Anabelle having the cake.

lol at her expression.

Because the room was not well lit, I had to use slower shutter speed..

that made Anabelle's face blury when she moved.

haha.

I hope Anabelle still remembers me after she moves. She's a cute little girl with a lot of things to say :)

Day #6 Your best friend

2010-09-30T22:19:00.002+08:00

Okay!
I exchange topic for day #6 and day #7. I have a valid reason for doing so.
Because my day today was basically sleep, eat, cook, go online, sleep, eat and online again. How interesting =.=

Hence, I shall blog about my best friend.

As some of you know, my family don't stay put in a place for long. We're always moving. That explains why I don't have a life long best friend. I always think of my life as different stages.
And that is why I have 'many' best friends. If that's even possible.

But if I am to choose just one.. I would say Cynthia.

Me&Cyn

Don't get me wrong, I do have other awesome friends like Nancy and Stephanie.. But Cynthia and I have been friends the longest and we still do keep in touch, until today. Which is amazing, given the fact that my family moves like a circus =.=''

I remember the first time I meet Cynthia.
It was during Sunday School and we were 12 years old. I just moved to Melaka that time.

She smiled at me. That's how our friendship begin.

Cynthia warned me before that she was 'small gas'. I didn't believe her.
After 9 years of friendship, I found out there were times she was right, about bring 'small gas'. haha, Cynthia darling, if you are reading this, don't get mad! Read finish first ;)

One thing I admire about this girl is that she is talented. She can really cook. I've tasted her fruit salad and fruit jelly and they are AWESOME! :D I love love her cooking. Cynthia is also very good in decorating and drawing. There was one Christmas that she made jelly for all of her friends and when I got mine, I was so surprised and happy.

Cynthia loves Christmas. Piano. Her Ah Mak (grandma). My sister, Rachel. Her boy.
She's an emotional person, like me. Little things can make her very 'fan' and little things can make her cry.

I love the way she laugh. I love the way she choose to be as innocent as a child.

Our couple tee ;)

We don't share much in comma except for out faith, age and love for my sister :)
But that's what's amazing isn't it? We only share little similarities, yet we still remain best friends for 9 years.

oh and she loves to post photos of Hello Kitty without her eyes, like this:

creepy right?

but this is so Cynthia XD

Cynthia Hang Hui Xin, I <3 ya! and I hope our friendship will continue to grow :)

Day #5 Your definition of Love

2010-09-29T23:10:00.001+08:00

My definition of love: The most simple yet complex feeling in human beings.

I love this quote about love:

"Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered.

It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth.

It always protects, always hopes, always preservers."

If you want to know whether that someone loves you, just go through that quote.

It's the most perfect and complete description of love.

I say love is the simplest because every baby born learns to love without anyone teaching them how to love.

Humans need love. A baby growing up without love will end up being a Feral child, like Genie. I almost cried reading about her on Wikipedia.

It's the saddest thing that can happened to any human, to live life without experiencing love.

I say love (especially romance love) is complex because it makes us feel confuses and uneasy at first. That's because we do things we don't understand for the person we love. But slowly, it starts to give a warm and happy feeling.

You know what is the ultimate act of love?

It's to die for someone you love. THAT is the action that just shouts 'I LOVE YOU' more then people who says 'I love you' a thousand times but don't show it in action.

He died for me. And you. JC. And that's why I understand love :)

Day #4 What you ate today

2010-09-28T23:23:00.001+08:00

I had tuna bread for breakfast :D

In case you think tuna stinks, think again. Mum makes the best tuna. She puts apple in them. Amazing right? lol.

This is not my photo, I just want to show the apple bits in the tuna.

I love tuna because of those apple bits :D
Apple helps balance out the fishy smell in tuna. It's AMAZING. Try it next time. hehe.

For lunch, I cooked!
I did baked beans with cubes of potato. One of my favorite, 'cause anything with tomato sauce is amazing :D

Photo not mine.

But my baked beans looks as amazing as the photo above. lol.

I cooked another dish, veggies. Not interesting, so I won't blog about that. *smug*

Next, for dinner I had fried rice! It was those Chinese restaurant fried rice, mind you. Dad came back from work with it. I was jumping for joy. Well, not literally.

by this time, you should be aware that none of these photos belong to me. lol.

It's funny how restaurant cooked fried rice and home cooked fried rice differ so much in taste. They do!

In between lunch and dinner I had a few snacks. Mum brought home some pao.
I love them 'cause they have eggs inside :D

the ones I had doesn't look like this, but these pao are the only ones with egg inside, so I uploaded this pica.

Mmm..yummeh :D

I also had Paddle Pop's vanilla ice cream with chocolate strips. Lava, is it's name. The one in a tub, not on stick. heh.

Now I feel fat. Urgh. But I love what I ate today. haha.

Day #3 Your Parents

2010-09-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

lol.

I thought I'd start this blog post with this funny photo of my dad & mum.

This was taken during the eve of Chinese New Year, and dad drink a little wine, which resulted in his red complexion

He's not drunk. His skin turns red by alcohol.

Even a tinsy bit.

Hmmm.. I can't really explain why he has that hilarious shell-shock expression on..

Maybe he was a wee bit drunk.

lol.

Here's a much serious photo :)

CNY morning.

As I've mentioned before, both my mum and dad are teachers.

My mum teaches primary school and my dad teaches secondary.

Let's start with mum.

Here's mum at work.

During one of her course, with kid's work.

Mum's the nature lover.

She loves gardening, recycling and reading.

She's a pure Chinese.

By saying that I meant, she is familiar with Chinese writing, literature and poems all that.

(I am not =.=)

My mum brings tiffin carrier whenever she goes out to buy food. She hates Styrofoam.

Whenever I come home with a new plastic bag, she would start morning.

lol. Jokes.

She wouldn't mourn, but she'd say things like 'I've raised you for 19 years, haven't you learn by now that plastic is NOT environmental friendly?!?'

It's because of mum that I develop a strong dislike for Styrofoam as well :)

Now to dad.

Here's me and dad.

If you notice, dad's kinda short. Hehe.

But he's adorable that way.

One of my earliest memory of dad is him doing his paper work. I was sitting on a bed on the floor and playing by myself.

Apparently, I found out that dad was doing his masters assignment that time, and mum was away on a course, so he was taking care of me. Haha.

If I can describe my dad in one word, it would be 'talented'.

As a teenager, dad taught himself to play guitar.

He plays like a pro now at 50.

Apart from music, dad has a flair in art.

He did a few drawing and painting which still hangs on our house's wall.

When I was younger, I had no idea how fortunate I was to have such amazing parents.

But now, I can say I am blessed to have them as my parents.

To share their DNA, and to have received their love and affection for 20 years.

Thank you ma & pa :)

I love you guys! :D

Day #2 Your First Love

2010-09-26T21:17:00.000+08:00

This is an interesting topic and I have a few answers for this.

As a girl, I'd like to say my first love was actually more like puppy love.

I still remember it. He was sitting on the same morning bus as me. We go to the same school. But different class if I'm not mistaken. These memory are vague because well, we were only 6 years old that time XD

Lol. Hey, the title did state 'first'.

So, during those mornings, I would go on the bus, take my sit like any normal person. After awhile, I would turn slightly and take a peek through the sit's gap to have a look at him.

Tammie: 'Hello! I'm your 6 year old stalker' X)

One thing funny, don't ask me his name because I can't even remember that. haha. I guess I fell in like with him because he looks cute. Yeaaah, I am that shallow back then. 6. Can you imagine =.=

Okay, so for real love, and not puppy love, the first love I felt for another person must be my little sister :)

When she was still a baby, I love her 'cause she looks so adorable and tiny, and that we share same kind of DNA.

But now, I love her when she acts stupid like the above picture XD

She was a gift to me from my parents. She brighten up my days (even though I'm pretty sure she messed up more then she brighten up =.=)

I know I love her because I tried imagining life without her, and I felt that if she was taken away from me this moment, I would go into an emotional breakdown. Seriously. I just can't imagine life without her.

My baby sister <3

I love you.

xoxo,

tam

Day #1 Introduce Yourself

2010-09-25T16:13:00.000+08:00

Hi. I am Tammie. Actually, my real name is Ming Ai.

My parents name me Tammie ever since I was born, but they fail to register my name as Tammie so officially, I'm Ming Ai. Call me whichever you want, but I'm more comfortable with Tammie.

There. That's the most basic thing about myself.

When I was still very young, I remember asking my mother when my birthday was. She told me August 3rd. I remember repeating it to myself in case I forgot. In the end, I felt victorious whenever someone asked my birthday and I manage to answer them even before they finish the question sentence.

Also, because of this, I ALWAYS (and still do) find people who's birthday are on the 10 or 20 something date very hard to remember. I used to wonder why don't they just have birthdays on single digits day. Like 1st to 9th. So much easier to remember.
So now you know why I can't really remember people's birthday?

I always wanted to be a younger child. But as fate would have it, I was born the first. Eldest of the family. I used to constantly complain to my mother 'Why am I the first born? I want an older brother to look after me, not me looking after a younger brother.' My mum would dismiss my question with answers like 'I was born the eldest too, it's not something we can control.' I was never satisfy with this answer, maybe it was too deep for a child that time. I would continue to grumble and question.
Once, my mum finally said 'Being the eldest, you got ALL the love and affection from both dad and me'
That shut me up proper.

As a kid, I always believe I was more 'special' then others. Not in a good way or a bad way. Just a neutral 'special'.
Why?
One, because I hold the pen by my left hand. Ever since started I learning to draw and write, I have used my left hand, I don't know why.

Both my parents are teachers. How many kids have their moms in the same school as them?
I used to envy kids who have lunch brought to them by their mums from home. From then, I vowed I would never be a teacher, but be like those mums bringing food to their kids during recess. I still would like to do so.

I have developed great love for God, photography, chocolate and lame jokes.

Tam doing what she loves best :)

Okay, so basically, I've covered all the important thingys about me. I hope you're still awake X)

30 Day Challenge

2010-09-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty sure no one reads my blog anymore. Haha. Not that I really mind. I used to get really involved about how many views I had today, but now, I prefer to have a quite blog where only close friends visits. It feels more private.

Anywayyy, I've taken up the challenge from Yew's blog about this 30 Days blogging Challenge.

The topics are such:

Day 01 – Introduce yourself

Day 02 – Your first love

Day 03 – Your parents

Day 04 – What you ate today

Day 05 – Your definition of love

Day 06 – Your day

Day 07 – Your best friend

Day 08 – A moment

Day 09 – Your beliefs

Day 10 – What you wore today

Day 11 – Your siblings

Day 12 – What’s in your bag

Day 13 – This week

Day 14 – What you wore today

Day 15 – Your dreams

Day 16 – Your first kiss

Day 17 – Your favorite memory

Day 18 – Your favorite birthday

Day 19 – Something you regret

Day 20 – This month

Day 21 – Another moment

Day 22 – Something that upsets you

Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better

Day 24 – Something that makes you cry

Day 25 – A first

Day 26 – Your fears

Day 27 – Your favorite place

Day 28 – Something that you miss

Day 29 – Your aspirations

Day 30 – One last moment

I don't know if I would make it to 30 days.. but I mustn't give up half way!

And since it's my sem break now, I CAN BLOG ALL I WANT, BABEH! ;)

Final Project: Colour Studies FASHION SHOW!!

2010-09-04T13:19:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was exhausting. We had a fashion show as our final project for the subject Colour Studies.

So yesterday at 1pm-6pm, on level 3 Block PC of UTAR PJ, you get to see many colourful,exotic,weird,funny costumes design. The theme of our fashion is 'NATURE'.
My group did 'Day and Night'. Our work was kinda disappointing because it was *sadly* last minute job, and our costume is not as impressive as others >_<

But you guys won't get what I mean by fashion show until I share some pictures.
So here you go, enjoy! :D

The make up.

Measuring and cutting the cloth.

Make up, done!

clouds on her face, because she's portraying 'Day'

kissy kiss? :X

<3 the concept

Okay, I know this is not the best modeling picture around, but my models are just tired and worn out

after 5 hours+ of waiting for our presentation,

so forgive them :)

hehe, yew (group leader) posing with Ting (female model's) hair for meeeee XD

The male model.

The mask was suppose to make him look mysterious as he's portraying 'Night'.

So this is his cape.

Those are real lights, you know, the one you see on Christmas trees XD

Time to introduce the other groups:

Models for group 'Disaster: Storm and Tornado'
This was the best model couple for the day!

I forgot the name of this group..but it has something to do with flowers.

lol.

Group for 'Insects and Flowers'
bumble bee! XD

'Flower' group.

'Sky- Thunder and Rainbow'

The group for 'Beast & Wings'

but they already took of their wings.lol.

The butterfly group. lol.

This group did the best I guess, judging from their outfit.
'Roses' was their theme I guess.. kind of forgot. haha.

I absolutely love the female model's dress:

It doesn't look like it's made from amateur students :O

Our tutor, Ms Maithrery and lecturer, Ms Haw are judges of the day.
Ms Haw: 'I want more expression!'
Ms Maithrery: 'Ya ya, 0 marks!'
lol. jokes.

Beast vs Butterfly
X)

'Stand still everyone!' Ms Maithrery (pronounce as My-three)

Group pica!

All 12 groups, 12 themes of Nature and 24 models :)

We were so busy setting up,sewing, fixing that we skip lunch. Everyone was super tired, but we had to go on. Lots of drama happened. But in the end, we all went back feeling lighter. Because that was our FINAL project!

No more assignments, no more presentations. Weeeee!
But this also means I won't be able to see some of our tutors & lectures anymore.
Let's hope I'll still be able to have the same tutorial class with my gang :D

Bye bye Drawing 1 :)

We'll meet again in Drawing 2, year 1 sem 3.

Buh-Bye, Mr Fairuz (one of the coolest tutor around)

Buh-Bye Digital Photography :')

See you in Digital Imaging, year 2 sem 2.

It's been a fun semester.
Let's let the memories stay.
<3

Oh Japan

2010-08-21T18:54:00.000+08:00

Boo-Yeah!

I can now cancel 'Wear a Kimono' on my To-Do List Before I Die.

Acting all polite and feminine.

Oh, whatever. Just for this time.

<3 the complimentary colors here :D

I got to fulfill things-to-do-before-I-die because of this girl! :)

She needed to take pictures of buildings and so I brought her to Japanese Garden in Bukit Tinggi.

Me lol-ed at my photographer.

Because she was laying down on the floor to get this picture, yea, when she was wearing a kimono herself.

Imagine that! X)

When we got there, the staffs were like 'Kimono rental, interested?'

I was basically shouting in my heart 'ARE YOU KIDDING?? INTERESTED?? I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS SINCE THE DAY I SAW A KIMONO!'

but outside, I was all 'Ummm.. I dunno...should I? Do you want to try this, Ting?'

Ha. That's Tammie for you.

Next on the list?

Bungee Jumping! X)

You know who you are

2010-08-15T14:47:00.001+08:00

''Sometimes when you do it too much, people will get tired of it. Before, it was our sincere feelings to help you get back yourself. But now, it's probably forced. Get it? Just try to be a little more positive and don't keep repeating what you are always doing if you really wanna keep true friends. We can't stop ourselves from feeling what we are feeling now. It's true, we can get tired too.''

I'm sorry we are not as friendly to you as last time.
At first, we really do care about you.
But our advice seem not to work on you. You know we get tired too if we feel you don't take our advice seriously? We think so much before advising you what to do.
You let emotions take control of you too much. If he's nice to you, then you get really happy. But if he ignore you, you get all emo. It's normal to feel emo, but I've really never experience a friend who is so emo. So maybe that's why I feel that you are very extreme.

Honestly, I feel that you are too dependent on us. You realize that we've only gotten to know each other for 9-10 weeks? You seem to cling to each of us for everything. I'm not trying to sound negative here, but it just looks that way to me. You purposely come late for class, just to see if we'll msg you in concern?
You should know that no one msg me when I am late for class lately. But the main point is, I don't expect anyone to msg me. I feel that it's normal if no one is concern if I come or not. Just because friends don't ask me where am I, doesn't mean I am not cared for. I feel that you expect too much from us. You should stop feeling so lowly of yourself.

Show that you are confident, loving your life and yourself, and people will naturally like you too.

He said your virus speared to us, but he is right, even though it sounds bad. No one likes a friend who always looks sad and sulk and don't want to talk. It makes the whole happy atmosphere looks dull and sad. We get affected if you keep looking moody. Makes us no mood too.
Do you know that? Yes, you said before it is your natural look, but I don't believe babies are born that way. I believe that, in your life, you worry too much. You think too much, so slowly, your expression turns moody even when you don't feel moody. Try thinking positively and smile more often. You look good when you smile. You may think it's a fake smile, but slowly, it will turn to natural smile. Just like how the moody look becomes your natural look.

I feel that we've cared for you too much, and you keep asking for more. And so we finally make up our minds to not care so much for you. You have to learn to stand on your own feet. You know Ash? He used to follow us around too. But when we don't show much care for him, he can stand on his own. He doesn't always cling to us.

I understand that maybe that's the way you show your friends what friendship is, by clinging to your friends. But that's not how everyone else's meaning of friendship.

I believe you are a really good friend, but you give too much, and you also expect the same to be given back to you. It's not right. If you give, you give willingly. Don't expect, because it will cause hurt and disappointment.

Tired means we have no more energy to layan. We need a break.
Ignore means not talking to you at all, even when you ask us questions.

The choice is in your hands. We are open to accept back a friend. If only you change your way of thinking. I'm sure we gave you enough advice, so you'll know what you should change or not. Change the negative part, not the good part.

Change, so that people will feel happy when mixing with you, not moody too.

Sorry, if I sound very mean and straight. But I think I should voice out how I feel.

Save you :)

2010-08-12T17:37:00.000+08:00

heh.

I know I've been MIA this couple of months. More then before.
and I only came back to blogger to blog about this song.

Save You by Simple Plan.

How many of you have heard this song before? I use to be and still is a Simple Plan fan. But it's been so long since I heard their latest song. The latest song I've heard from them is Your Love is A Lie.

So I was pretty supriesed that they have a new single, titled 'Save You'. I went YouTube to watch it.
At first I thought, ah nice song. Cool music video.

But then I got to the part in the video where it showed, 'Everyone featured in this music video is a cancer survivor or is related to someone who has cancer.'

I froze.
I blinked.
I teared.

I miss my grandpa.

I wasn't especially close to him while he was alive, but my dad always told me about grandpa's life.

Even while he was still here, I've nothing but respect for my father's dad. He was a strict man with great value. He was a great man, and I'm not just saying that.

He could fix almost anything, radio, car, tv..
He used to smoke, but he had the willpower to stop smoking for the sake of his family.
He loved everyone of his children and grandchildren...
and we lost him to cancer.

But cancer was God's way of brining my grandpa to Him. If it wasn't for cancer, my grandpa would never accept God's gift.

Yes, I miss him dearly. And I'm sure my dad misses him more. But God wants him back.
I don't know if I should smile or cry :')

'When I'm feeling blue...

2010-06-29T01:30:00.000+08:00

all I have to do, is take a look at you. Then I'm not so blue..'

Eh, how true this lyrics sound right now.

I think I'm starting to hallucinate.

To the point that I can imagine him smiling at me.

HOW ON GRANNY'S CURRY PUFF CAN I EVEN HALLUCINATE THAT???

I call it hallucination 'cause:
1. We're practically strangers.
2. He's smiling at the friend beside me.

3. ...gosh, he looks so good when he smile. *melts*

Maybe I spent too much time in a creative an environment that my brain starts acting creatively.

It's mental torture, I tell you.

In a totally different matter:
Assignments sucks big time. Especially the stress it gives you before deadline hits.When you look at your art work and you just feel like tearing it to pieces because you think it's not good enough, but you can't because you won't have anything to hand up afterwards.

Why is my close friend is in a bad mood lately?
Don't la be like that..I feel sad can ady, you don't have to join me..haha
But it's true, the atmosphere lately is very sad and tense.

I know you're not feeling any better, girl. It's okay. It's just a phase. It will pass. Remember to call me when you feel really lonely and sad. I promise I won't cry with you, haha, I'll give you good advice! :)

It's okay to feel 'luan'. It's okay to feel sad. It's okay to cry. But be strong.
Here's a song I like:

Sabah is far, but remember, it's not the end of the world! =)
Take really good care.
I'll miss you, BUT we can always meet! I wanna go Sabah ayway =)

So far....

2010-06-15T17:59:00.000+08:00

p/s: Old model of a Mac Desktop

You know, I feel so sua ku taking a camera out to snap pictures of Apple computers?

haha.. but I can't contain myself XD

So apparently, for subject Desktop Publishing, we need to learn how to use Photoshop & Illustrator.. and the Mac Desktops are best for the job.

I spy an apple on my keyboard.

This is just UTAR, imagine what they use for full private unis like LKW?

At Digital Photography tutorial today, we I had fun snapping illegal pictures in class XD

Hehe, look at Mr. Canon's expression XD

(count the dSLRs in this picture! lol )

Lecturer Mr Fairuz (middle) teaching us the basics of dSLR settings.

A senior peeking at us during our class.

(After he realized I was taking his picture, he disappeared. Muahaha)

Then comes Drawing tutorials.

YY and Benjamin.

so serious xD

Trust me when I say, this umbrella may look pretty, but it's evil!!

My drawing of this looks like a primary school kid's drawing.

Guess who's getting a D F for this drawing?

T__T

I likey this oneee.

Poses of future artists ;)

So....so far, that's how my study life. goes Very artsy. Very hands on. You die if you can't draw awesomely (me). You die if you don't have $$ to buy dSLRs and art supplies. But so far...I love this life. It's fun, packed and interesting. or maybe I'm just saying that cuz assignments haven't kicked in >__<

Ipoh guys are chivalrous.

*thumbs up*

If only every guys are like that.

Wassup, B?

2010-06-09T23:07:00.002+08:00

Condition of my bed at the moment.

I love my 'WASSUP, B?' tee.

it's so adorable.

But 2 people asked me 'Is that green poop (shit)?'

I'm like 'Noooo! That's a wasabi!'

And they go 'Oooooh!!'

then after 2 seconds they'll go 'Hahahaha, that's so cute!'

Papers are my next best friend lately.

I have to keep staring at their white blank bodies and draw something.

I'm happy I finished drawing 10 mascots.

But the drawings are so sucky compared to my course mates.

*inferiority complex*

Shoot, Ms Hasleena only picked 1 of my sketch.

And I've got a feeling that's cause there's nothing else nicer =.=

Ms Hasleena: 'You don't like drawing much?'

Me: 'lol. yeah.'

*runs away with my 10 sketches of mascots*

Looking forward to tomorrow's digital photography lecture.

I wanna learn something awesome. Please.

Assignments to-do List (for the weekend):

1. Colour small 30 boxes for Colour Studies.

2. Finish 10 sketches of still life art for Drawing 1.

3. Finish photography exercise for Digital Photography.

Life in PJ

2010-06-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

It's been almost a week since I started living on my own in PJ.
Life isn't half bad. I'm proud to say I didn't sob myself to sleep, missing home :D

It really helps that I have awesome roommates.
One girl is from Sabah. Since she's from another part of Malaysia, she says things that are weird to us, West Malaysians.
I taught her to say 'Jia Lat'
She can't stop saying jia lat now.
I feel proud. I corrupted a Sabahan XD

The other girl is from Malacca!
Same school during form 6, but I wasn't very familiar with her. But now, we're sharing a room.
The world is so tiny :)

3 days in PJ and I've already shopped in Tropicana City Mall, Mid Valley, The Gardens and Times Square.
Talk about shopping spree.
Since we have no car, we took buses and KL monorail. I can assume that I'm pretty pro with PJ buses by now. lol.

Today's shopping spot was Times Square. We passed by a shop called:

They sell bread and soup.

Boring right?

Wait til you see the shape of the bread ;)

*Ta da*

That's the bread, holding the soup.

It's so cute.

Personally I felt the soup was a bit sweet. (I ordered mushroom soup.)

But other then that, this is really nice.

When we were done eating, I got up to leave. I didn't notice that my phone has slipped out of my pocket.

A guy who works at espresSoup came after me, handing my hand phone back to me.

I felt so embarrassed and I kept thanking that guy xD

He just smile and said thanks to me. I guess that's cause it is like me giving him the hand phone, if it wasn't so kind of him to return it to me :)

To that guy, if you're reading this (which I highly doubt you are) THANK YOU AGAIN!

My life is in that phone.lol.

There was a missive traffic jam on our way back. Did someone say 'Welcome to KL'? lol.

So far, that's about all I can share. Roommates are going to sleep now. I better be going off too.

xoxo,

tam

JoJo Lum

2010-05-30T00:32:00.000+08:00

I love the way she laughs.
She has a way of carefree-ness in her. Very friendly. No doubt she has tons of friends.
She laughs at anything. And that makes hanging out with her so fun :)

and I'm so so so lucky to be one of those people who can say 'Hey, that's MY friend!'

We may not be as close as some people think we are, but I still cherish our friendship :)
So glad to have known you.

And even though we're not going to the same uni.. it doesn't mean our friendship will have a full stop here right?

Heres to Jocelyn Lum :)

For hitting 20 years old.

May she never stop laughing at silly things.

May she continue to be this warm and friendly.

p/s: I love this picture of you ;)

Love ya, hon.

Back in Melaka :D

2010-05-09T17:45:00.002+08:00

Met up with Cyn on Friday.

She's taken, boys xD

She said the sour cream pretzel are really nice.

And she was right!

Love the sour cream pretzel.

The white one is actually covered in sour cream.

Dark one is covered in chocolate mint :D

That night after Youth, I drag everyone to Jonker.

Jonker is colorful.

Noisy.

And hot.

As usual.

Cyn, Qing, W.Sheng and H.Sheng :D

Hanging out with them made me miss old times.

Huey Sheng brought us for mamak after that.

Now, this guy below is apparently very famous for his flying roti canai.

My friend was asking him to preform.

At first he hesitated.

Then he saw me pulling out my camera and he smiled.

I was trying to get the camera settings ready but he seemed to be ready to fly the canai already, so I kind of freaked out saying 'wait' (in Chinese) to nobody in particular.

This guy smiled and said (in Malay) 'Don't freak, it's just roti canai!'

So I gave up trying to get the correct settings and start snapping his pictures :D

and that explains why my pictures are blurry.

But seriously, he was awesome :D

Since I didn't get a video recoding, I got one on Youtube, here:

Of course he didn't serve us the same roti canai after 'flying' it.

haha.

It's just for fun.

I'm so proud of Melaka after watching him.lol.

Next day I met up with ex form6 girls.

I missed that face =P

lol.

that's how she peel prawn.

Nancy and mua :)

We're funny like that.

Nancy couldn't take day off from work..so we had lunch together.

It was short but fun.

I was just bummed out I can't meet Jocelyn and Karnee.

But all in all, it was a really fun trip back.

Can we do it again? XD

Rainbow comes after rain, success comes after struggle.

2010-05-05T20:19:00.005+08:00

I did another stop motion project today :)

Its still very shaky huh? I should really get a tripod.

Well, the main reason why I did this project is cause some of my friends are feeling down lately. I wish I could do something, but this is all I can do, ask you guys to cheer up, which is lame but yeah I'm lame,so yeah. Hahaha. XD

This afternoon, it looks like it was going to rain, so I posted a status on my FB:

Because I saw a rainbow 2 days ago, after a quick rain.

2 minutes later, my brother called me.

'Tammie! Look, there's a rainbow!'

Wish came true! :D

Grabbing my cam, I ran out.

The rainbow looks so far in this picture. But at that time, it looks really really close and big.
The first time I saw a rainbow at such a close distance.

A zoom in on the rainbow:

Looking at the rainbow kinda lifted my spirits.
One thing I love about Bukit Tinggi is the weather. Its seems like it only takes a few drops of rain to produce a beautiful rainbow :)

Top 10 things I learnt about being a Receptionist.

2010-05-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

10. Never tell a guest 'Maybe you don't know how to on our Astro.' When they ask why they can't watch Astro in their room. You will be laughed at.

9. Always smile. No matter what. When guests complain or grumble or demand to talk to the manager. Be as pleasant as possible.

8. Always answer the phone by saying 'Reception, morning/afternoon/evening.' and not 'Hello?' like ~~I did~~ a complete blur person.

7. Don't get easily distracted by a cute guest.

6. Accept the fact that guests will always check in at odd hours. Like 4am in the morning, and they'll expect you to answer questions like 'Where can we have breakfast in the morning?' or 'Where's the toilet?' when your brain is clearly asleep.

5. School holidays and public holidays can be so busy that you wish you can use your legs to pick up the phone.

4. Normal days can sometimes be so boring that you find yourself staring at the clock. And talking to yourself.

3. Be very careful about handling money. This is not Monopoly.

2. It's an advantage if you can speak more then 1 language. But it also means that you'll receive more complains in that language.

And the number one lesson I learnt?

1. Always keep track of time. Do not freak out, get dress and run to the office just because you think you're 2 hours late for work- just to find out that it's your off day, like I did. (Unless if you want to be laughed at by your mom and your friend.) Good exercise though.

Ever wonder how it's like to be dead?

2010-04-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

I watched this movie today. The Lovely Bones. I never expect it to be so intense.

Have you ever wonder how people will react once they found out you're dead?
Honestly, I have.

This movie is like a story. Told by a 14 year old girl who uses this line to introduce herself : 'My name is Salmon, like the fish. First name, Susie. I was fourteen years old when I was murdered on December 6th, 1973.'
She continues to tell the story after she's dead.

I guess I can related to Susie Salmon.

Her first crush going to step in first love then all of a sudden, she was murdered. Everything was taken away from her at that moment. Her life was just about to begin when it was robbed away.

The whole movie is told from the eyes of a dead girl. Seeking revenge. Hoping someone could hear her voice.

Live life to the fullest. Once you're dead, there's no turning back.

That one thing I've learnt from the movie.

Granted, there were some scenes I think are cheesy. But hey, it's about the afterlife, which living person would have any idea about that? So that's forgivable.

I cried. Yeah. Told you I never expect this movie to be that intense.

"There was one thing my murderer didn't understand; he didn't understand how much a father could love his child."

And this line didn't help the tears from ceasing.

All in all, a movie worth watching.

I'll probably get the book soon ;)

What crazy things did u do today?

2010-04-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

My ex-classmate nudge me on msn the other day.

I know for a fact that he doesn't find me unless there's something to kacau me about.

True enough, he invited to on web cam.

He type: "Accept! I want to show you something"

I hesitated.

He must have sense it because the next thing he typed was "Don't worry, it's healthy one."

His words, not mine.

So I accepted the web cam invitation.

The first image I saw on his webcam was something like this:

haha.

Then he type: "Tell me when you're ready."

Suspense wei.

I was getting more and more suspicious and curious.

I was thinking 'Uhh...Can I not see what I think you want to show me?'

Of course I didn't tell him that.

I was curious as well so I type back, "Ok. Ready"

His next movement was so quick, I didn't get to response fast enough.

I was so shocked.

I just stared at the screen.

You guys wanna know what he showed me?

This is what he showed me:

What were you thinking??

He's botak!

Bald.

haha.. he looks like he just came out of NS.

But seriously, after laughing my bottom off at his new hairdo, I interrogated him.

'Why suddenly cut botak?'

'Are you okay?'

Found out he and his friends just did it for fun.

(=.=")

Teen boys.

Go figure.

lol.

So I was thinking, what crazy stuff have I done before?

I can't think of anything!

Am I that un-spontaneous?

I wanna go bungee jumping someday.

Or a spontaneous backpacking trip across Europe (even Asia will do).

So, tell me!

What insane, on the spot things have you guys done before?

p/s: what would you guys think if I shave bald too?

just asking x)

Free outfit for me! :D

2010-04-08T19:30:00.001+08:00

I got a package today.

I've been expecting it ;)

It's actually a pair of outfit, top and pants.

I ordered it on irenelim.com

The outfit costs RM70.

And that's not including postage fees.

They sent using Post Laju some more.

I love the comfy pants :D

Of course, like I said before, I don't have to pay a single cent for it *dance*

Not even for postage fees.

How come?

Well, that's because I join Project Witch.

The project is close for now.

But, there will be more in the future!

So don't sigh.

Thankies, Irene for everything :)

and MeiYee for promoting this.

Being chased by a white man with a golf club

2010-04-04T20:17:00.001+08:00

So today something weird happened.

I was taking afternoon nap when I heard my little sister crying really hard.
I heard my dad ask her what's wrong.
My sister said betweens sobs 'Mr. B..'

I need to explain a little here, Mr. B lives in the same area me and my family are currently staying.
He's a really (my estimation is195cm) tall ang mo lang (Caucasian).
Mr. B is known to hate sounds of any kind.. he seems to hate kids most.
As most of you know, I work at the reception of the resort I'm staying now so I get to hear news of Mr. B a lot.
There's once, I heard, he went to the swimming pool and chase a kid out of the pool. Yes, he literally ran and chase the kid out. Because the kid was making too much noise.
Then there's another case where he went upstairs to the apartment unit above him and told the guest staying there to 'Teach your kids to walk properly' because he's staying at the apartment unit below.

So my dad immediately understood.
1. My sister went to the playground to play with her friends.
2. She came back crying.
Conclusion: Mr. B must've scolded them.
But what made my dad outraged was that Mr B went and took out a golf club and threated them with it. My mum was there, so she told us the story.

I know this sounds very confusing, so I drew a picture of this:

I wasn't there, but this is how I imagine it.

and that is exactly how Mr B look.

Very tall and bald.

Seriously.

Of course, the kids aren't bald but I lack creative juice to draw hair on them.

Mr B complained that the kids were too noisy.

But my mum said, which playground isn't noisy?

A quite playground is like a ghost town.

My parents then went to make a police report about this.
My sister was traumatized. I mean, it's not every day she was harassed by an intimidating tall white man with a golf club.

I kind of have mix feelings about this. I mean, yes, I've heard stories of how kids+noise intolerant Mr. B is..but I've never personally seen that side of him.
Every time he comes to the reception area, he would cheerfully call all the staffs by name and there's this once where he even treated us with cheese tarts =3

So I actually pictured him as a nice person.
It disturbs me that a person you imagine as nice would do something like that to your family.

I also think that the police report maybe a little too much.. I dunno.. I'm quite confused how to feel or react now.

So what do you guys think?

I didn't blog about this so I can laugh at the kids or insult Mr. B.

I blog so because I like to hear what you think.. I need a 3rd point of view.

Here's how you ask someone to be your gf on FB

2010-03-31T00:32:00.002+08:00

I love these Facebook groups. They explain what I've been through so well. There's so many cute + funny + outrageous names for these groups in Facebook, but I'll talk about those later.

There's this group in Facebook call 'It absolutely KILLS when I bang my little toe on the leg of a table!'

Just so happen that I did knock my tiny toe recently.. my poor toe went black >__<
Blood clot.
I was praying my toe won't be stunted or something.

So I decided to write on It absolutely KILLS when I bang my little toe on the leg of a table!'s wall.
Here's what I wrote:

I know I'm lame, you don't have to point out the obvious XD

Anyway what I wrote on the wall of this group is not why the reason why I blog.

Nah.. here's the real reason why I blog about this topic:

1. I got a comment from my cousin, xuan xiao-ing me.

2. I got a spam from some random girl trying to promote her group.

3. I got a.....girlfriend request?

I know, right!

Who knew someone would propose to me after I write something dedicated to my tiny toe.

That's so...er... ~~romantic~~ original.

HAHA

Of course I know this guy is a joker.

But I have no idea who he is. Random stranger.

Thanks for the laugh, Tariq ;)

It's so random. So funny XD

Ahh.. Facebook just entertained me again.

My very first stop motion picture!! :D

2010-03-23T09:37:00.001+08:00

I've seen lots of stop motion pictures/videos before and I must say I'm pretty taken by some.
I love the whole idea of taking pictures step by step and then making a short film out of it.

So today I finally tired by hands on this 'stop motion' project.
I didn't use a tripod to take these pictures, that explains why my cookie plate is moving a awful lot.
I have to admit though, this is my first stop motion picture so it's not very good.. but I'll keep trying to get really good stop motion animation :)

I stayed up until 1.30am doing this. Was so excited when I finally got it right.

My model: Chipsmore cookie & Green Plate
It took me 10 shots of pictures to create this quick stop motion animation.

Oh and yes I ate this cookie.
Actually I ate 2 cookies in the making of this stop motion picture xD

Thinking of more ideas for future stop motion projects :D

So what do you guys think? is it too fast? or too slow? Too short?

SoP

2010-03-20T10:52:00.001+08:00

Statement of purpose.
I'm asked to write my own statement of purpose.

I know I have the vocabulary to write it. I just don't know what to write. A statement of purpose basically tells others about your purpose in life.
What you want to do. What you've been dreaming of doing all your life. How you can achieve it. That sort.

I haven't started. I have no idea what to write.
All I know is I want to travel around the world. I want to go to countries I read in novels, see in TV. I want to experience all the different culture, language and food. I want to take pictures and just bask in the glory of life.

How can I write something like that in a university statement of purpose?
I don't think any university admin will be very impress if they read something like that.
It's too hippie =.=

I love to blame our culture for breeding me into a purposeless girl in life.
I mean, Asian mindset is all about 'Be a doctor, a lawyer,a businessman or an engineer to succeed in life, anything else is bull.'
They drill that in your mind ever since you're a kindergarten-er.

I'll excuses myself.
I need to bang my head on the desk, then on the wall- to write a SoP impressive enough to be accepted in a uni I've been wanting to go. Utter crap.

Ripley's, I believe! :D

2010-03-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

I completed one of my life mission the other day.

Yes, I brainwashed ah Yin to chaperon me to Genting's Ripley's Believe It Or Not.
"[] Visit Ripley's Believe It Or Not" has been on my life mission ever since I was 12.
Now I can tick that off the list :D

I enjoy the exhibition. Lots of crazy, unique, unbelievable stuff being showcased.
I'll share a few ;)

This huge chair specially designed for the world's tallest human.

I feel so small sitting in it xD

My favorite part of the whole gallery

I call it The Falling Books :D

freakin awesome!

I can't help posing with it more then once XD

The cow with 6 legs.

No, the cow's not giving birth, it just has it's half-formed Siamese twin stuck in a very awkward position.

The Fiji Mermaid!!

I finally saw the mermaid in 3D.

I've been hearing so much about it and have been reading about it for years..

but never saw it in real life.

If you ask me, I think the end of the tali is chipped off :(

In actual truth, this is not a mermaid at all.

It's actually made up of 2 bodies: A upper body of a monkey and a end body of a fish, sown together so nicely that people think it's 1 body of a mermaid looking creature.

Robin Hood squirrelD:

So adorable right?

Well, I stop saying 'SO CUTEEEE!!' after I found out the squirrel died so they can dressed it up like this.

=.=

Last of all, The Crooked Room - as I call it xD

I feel like falling to one side when I walked into the room.

Well, those are some of my favorites I can show in my blog..there's too much pictures to post and I'm tired..

I haven't have enough ZZZ since I started working night shifts.

I should probably get some sleep.

Like this lil girl I saw outside Genting's Indoor Theme park, in front of McD

*cuteness*

I shall sleep now, goodnight world <3

Nancy Yap Tzyy Ning,u better read this!

2010-03-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

This post is for the girl who was there when I told her I hate chemistry.

This post is for the girl who taught me Bio and PA.

This post is for the girl who can make me laugh 'til my tummy ache.

This post is for the girl who cares and never fail to ask me what's wrong when I'm having a bad day.

This post is for the girl who made me addicted to Restaurant City.

This post is for the girl who taught me how to keep saying 'Jia Lat'.

This post is for the girl who taught me how to play a little bit of piano.

No, I'm not a lesbian, this girl is my best friend :)

The funny thing about us is we knew each other a long long time. Back in form 1. But we only got close 1 and a half year ago.
I honestly never ever thought we'll end up being friends. Not to mention best friends.

I'm glad to have a friend like you, who cares. Who offer to help every time I face a problem. Thank you for everything :D

It's you're birthday tomorrow. But I can't celebrate with you. Of course other friends'll be there to celebrate with you (I hope he comes to celebrate with you! *ahem ahem* XD )

So...I'll wish you here:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANCY!

all purple xD

Be happy, be strong, be yourself.

Happy 20th!

I'm a lazy bum

2010-03-02T15:19:00.000+08:00

I'm so lazy to blog recently.

Explaining the very low traffic I get now.
My laziness doesn't even give a damn.
It doesn't even care that I've got Rm49.00 in my Nuffnang account, and with just 1 more Ringgit, I'll be able to cash it out.

I talked to the Laziness-in-Tammie just now.

Tammie: 'Eh Lazy Bum, when are you going to update your blog so you can get your blog traffic going and finally cash out the Nuffnang money?'
Lazy Bum: 'Later laaaaa.......'
Tammie: 'Later as in..?'
Lazy Bum: 'Mmmm..'
Tammie: 'What? Answer me!'
Lazy Bum: 'Mmmm..'

Laziness-in-Tammie is even lazy enough to talk. Whateva!

I shall now entertain my dear blog readers by a picture so mind blowing that it's going to keep you coming to my blog for at least a few days... so I get traffic XD

Ok, so, FACEBOOK!
Everyone has it. Everyone is hook on it. Everyone loves it.

But what happens when Facebook brings a literal meaning?

O.o

I can't digest anything after this.

lol.

Happy eating! XD

Wo shi hua ren :D

2010-02-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

I am no longer a housewife :D

Super bad timing, I tell you.

But I got a job as a front desk receptionist *yay*

I'm itching to tell you guys this, this morning when I went to report in for duty, there's this Korean dude at the receptionist's desk. I barely understand what he was trying to say but I definitely understand his tone.

He was swearing.

I think. Hey, it's in Korean.

How would I know? But it sounds unpleasant.

I later found out why he was swearing.. it's because one of his friend, a female golfer, was hit by a golf ball in the face. And she's bleeding.

To make matters worse, they can't find a driver to send her to the hospital.

It was 8.50am in the morning, mind you. The van driver was on his way, but it still takes him like 30 mins to reach.

So of course the Korean dude was unhappy. I tell you, when Korean swears, it sounds like they're singing. Lol. No kidding.

My new job enables me to listen to Korean speak Korean *double yay*

And I like it. I love listening to them speak Korean. It sounds melodic. So graceful :)

Maybe I should pick up Korean as well? XD

Oh, another incident happened today.

Another Korean dude (this one is older and much calmer) came in to ask if he could use the sauna.

Since he can't speak a word of English, he brought along a Korean woman who speaks English but...very limited English..

So guess what's the situation like?

2 Koreans and 3 Malaysians (the staff, including me) communicating in sign language =.=

We tried telling them, they can only use the sauna after 5pm.. but the man kept on pointing '4', so we point back '5'.

Then suddenly, the Korean lady looked at me and said 'Ni shi hua ren?' or 'You're Chinese?'

I was shock. But pleasantly so. (The other 2 staffs are Malay)

I quickly communicated with her in mandarin. Her mandarin is much better then her English :)

We found out the man point '4' because he wanted to say 4 people wants to go to the sauna. lols.

Man, I'm so proud to be able to speak mandarin after that incident XD

Anyway, after talking so much, let's stop listening to me talk. Watch this!

This 3 year old girl is crying because she says she's in love with Justin Bieber.

The ~~guy~~ boy who sang 'One Time'.

When the phone rang...she was like....(not telling you! Watch it to find out) so funny XD